You are not alone. Right now, you can:
Real next steps, not a dead end.
The longing you feel is not nothing; it is Him calling. Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you. You can speak to Him plainly, right now, in your own words.
And if you want to meet Him truly, the door is a Person: Jesus. He is holding it open for you.
A word for this moment
“Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded.”
James 4:8 (KJV)“And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.”
Jeremiah 29:13 (KJV)Whatever brought you here, the deepest comfort is a Person. Meet Jesus, or receive the Living Bread, tonight.
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